Im just sulking. I miss him dearly. Yes.
5 days away is no joke.
Not able to communicate is bad enough.
Im worried that something bad might happen when he's inside.
I love him, yes i do.
I dont know why.
Its something bout him i guess.
He makes me feel whole.
Even if i just loss a family and im striving to support myself.
He is still able to make me smile and think that life is all worthwhile as long as im with him.
Things didnt go well on a friday night.
We fought and he left me crying under the rain.
I bled, I cried and i begged.
I was terrified.
The only reason for living has left me.
If i was religious, i'd pray for him not to leave me like that any more.
Ive never felt so affected when someone walked out on me before.
It was truly horrifying.
I never do wanna go though what happened that friday night ever again.
It seems that the littlest things are freaking the hell out of me these days.
Im paranoid.
Of hell knows what.
What am i to do for these lonely 5 days?
Should i write letters?
Should i send him text msges?
Should i wonder if he misses me too?
Yesterday was sweet.
A nice dinner at a sushi restaurant then a late night movie.
I wanna have a good time with him before he leaves.
I'm dying without you lutfi boy ♥ ♥ ♥
