Blah blah blah....
Im blogging in the airport and ive got a time limit.
So much has happened lately and i am in my own little world.
Late nights with phone calls not to be remembered the next morning.
People will be missed so much.
Jasmine, Yatee, Lutfi, Ric, Farzyn, and the list goes on and on and on..
The only thing i cant stop thinking bout is my dreadlocks im gonna do and the alcohol i am gonna buy when i return.
Oh.. and the people i am gonna meet when i return.
I brought my camera along so i am hoping i am gonna take beautiful pictures while i am there...
I cant say much when i am in a hurry..
Except, i am already missing the people i love dearly.
I hope i have a good and enjoyable trip.
Cheers fellow blog readers..
I cross my heart and see you fall
You called for this.
I gave you everything you wanted, blindly and coldheartedly you threw it all away.
Now you are running back to me.
I cant play your twisted game any longer.
Smiles dropping quiet frowns. Laughter falls to tears. Counting all the time it took to build up our innocent sweet love. Trust.....Ive no longer have in me. I hide away my fear. Dropping everything so quickly. Memories arent so clear. Belief of my one truth. That i should have never interfered. Pushing away as they hold me down. Forcing me to stay here. But my light is getting dimmer. Everything is slowly fading away. The pain may soon be over. Maybe this is finally my day. But the light keeps getting dimmer. My sight is going black. I flashback to the tears and rainbows....
Its something i dont want to have to go through again.
ANYWAY....
I was sitting in my toilet earlier (dont ask why) and i noticed a smiley face crafted on the floor from the dirt off the soles of someone's feet. So very adorable.
Yet i keep asking myself why have i been so poetic and random lately. Something i cant relate to.
An angel. God sent.
He makes me laugh in every possible way. (even when im having my cramps. Now, that is very impossible but he managed it). I told you... god sent.
In a condescending way, we have so much in common.
Now i anticipate watching Camera Obscura with him.
Watching the fireworks the other weekend with him was like watching stars dancing in the shy. Nope, no regrets. He truly is an amazing person.
I am so contented with the alls i have within me now.
A loving mother (though she can be a pain at times) and an awesome friend/s.
Nothing else i would want to beg for.
I will let love find me
You would not understand.
I have stories to tell my little ones.
But you have to be patient.
You will have to grow.
Its all in your head my little darlings. Let yourself at ease and walk into my weird little twisted world. Don't be scared now. We all can be friendly and be merry. But wait. I cant recall. Take a step back... everything is blurry now.
Should i love? Should we love? Should anyone love? Light up my darkness. Guide me into this broken path and hold onto me. No, never let go.
Well.. maybe, just be my friend.
Lets fly around. Freely. See and admire the wondrous colours and fill our monotonous black and white heart with the happiest of spirits.
We all deserve to be happy. Curl out our hands and reach the unreachable. We all could do it if only we set our dying minds to it.
We should never let it die. Close your eyes.
Feel me. Turn your words into kisses.
The truth.
Expressions.
Silence and the lost of sight.
Love.
Its just another beginning.
I will live through it.
(i bet none of you understand this)...
But you have to be patient.
You will have to grow.
Its all in your head my little darlings. Let yourself at ease and walk into my weird little twisted world. Don't be scared now. We all can be friendly and be merry. But wait. I cant recall. Take a step back... everything is blurry now.
Should i love? Should we love? Should anyone love? Light up my darkness. Guide me into this broken path and hold onto me. No, never let go.
Well.. maybe, just be my friend.
Lets fly around. Freely. See and admire the wondrous colours and fill our monotonous black and white heart with the happiest of spirits.
We all deserve to be happy. Curl out our hands and reach the unreachable. We all could do it if only we set our dying minds to it.
We should never let it die. Close your eyes.
Feel me. Turn your words into kisses.
The truth.
Expressions.
Silence and the lost of sight.
Love.
Its just another beginning.
I will live through it.
(i bet none of you understand this)
Commitment = Anger
Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
Level 2
(x) Are /Have Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x)Thrown Up From Drinking
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel
Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
Level 8
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sliding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
Level 12
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole tub of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
Level 14
(xxx) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced (not professionally)
(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The sea
(xxxx) Felt Like You Were Dying
Level 16
(xxx) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Marker
(x) Sang Karaoke....
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
Level 17
(xxxxxx) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain
Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate A Pear Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts(spirits)
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail
Level 25
( ) played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
Ive have done alot of stupid things....
Misanthropy is a general dislike, distrust, or hatred of the human species or a disposition to dislike and/or distrust other people. The term is also applicable to those who self-exile themselves or become loners because of the aforementioned feelings.
I like that word...
Bring to mind, retain with much effort, SPF 1023.
A tragic moment never to be forgotten. It stains not only my heart but others who are dearly loved. (i dont like the way im talking).. okay, so i admit, it was a case of stupidity. But its the only way i would learn my reckless mistakes. NO MORE FIVE FINGER DISCOUNTS LYNS.
The agony of love.
The misery, pain, torment, torture, woe, wounded wretchedness (i could go on)
If life was honest, everyone would win the battle. But my lips are sealed. Either way, its my loss in the end. I cant say much.
If only my game plays with a give and take situation.
On my side i keep giving and my opponent is happily receiving.
Nothing comes back to me. Im loosing.
If only it was as easy as reciting the alphabets, but i am only a justborn.
You are starting to annoy me.
Realise, the littleist things i do arent enough for the love i want in return....
Would i be searching for a midnight kiss?
Would anyone know what is it? Or how would one feel?
What does a kiss mean? Is it just touch?
I always have so many questions at the back of my mind.
Questions to no possible answer.
I have been tied down lately.
Mom just announced that we would be going to bangkok the following month.
My first direct thought was dreadlocks.
Now i am slaving my ass off to earn enough moonies for the trip.
I am really tired.
I have yet to treat my self a good shut eye.
The only thing i can recall is for 4 nights straight, i havent been sleeping.
Its eating me slowly inside.
Today's sunday.
Glorious beautiful sunday.
One last thing before i close this.
Whenever i think bout boys and love and relationships,
i smile with a hint of giggle in my heart.
I never did understand them. Never will do.
Never will bother.
Watch this and feel loved. (chey)
♥ <--- funny thing, they dont have a broken heart code...
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
Level 2
(x) Are /Have Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x)Thrown Up From Drinking
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel
Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
Level 8
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sliding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
Level 12
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole tub of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
Level 14
(xxx) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced (not professionally)
(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The sea
(xxxx) Felt Like You Were Dying
Level 16
(xxx) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Marker
(x) Sang Karaoke....
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
Level 17
(xxxxxx) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain
Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate A Pear Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts(spirits)
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail
Level 25
( ) played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
Ive have done alot of stupid things.
Dont fuck with me
Misanthropy is a general dislike, distrust, or hatred of the human species or a disposition to dislike and/or distrust other people. The term is also applicable to those who self-exile themselves or become loners because of the aforementioned feelings.
I like that word...
Bring to mind, retain with much effort, SPF 1023.
A tragic moment never to be forgotten. It stains not only my heart but others who are dearly loved. (i dont like the way im talking).. okay, so i admit, it was a case of stupidity. But its the only way i would learn my reckless mistakes. NO MORE FIVE FINGER DISCOUNTS LYNS.
The agony of love.
The misery, pain, torment, torture, woe, wounded wretchedness (i could go on)
If life was honest, everyone would win the battle. But my lips are sealed. Either way, its my loss in the end. I cant say much.
If only my game plays with a give and take situation.
On my side i keep giving and my opponent is happily receiving.
Nothing comes back to me. Im loosing.
If only it was as easy as reciting the alphabets, but i am only a justborn.
You are starting to annoy me.
Realise, the littleist things i do arent enough for the love i want in return.
What do they mean?
Would i be searching for a midnight kiss?
Would anyone know what is it? Or how would one feel?
What does a kiss mean? Is it just touch?
I always have so many questions at the back of my mind.
Questions to no possible answer.
I have been tied down lately.
Mom just announced that we would be going to bangkok the following month.
My first direct thought was dreadlocks.
Now i am slaving my ass off to earn enough moonies for the trip.
I am really tired.
I have yet to treat my self a good shut eye.
The only thing i can recall is for 4 nights straight, i havent been sleeping.
Its eating me slowly inside.
Today's sunday.
Glorious beautiful sunday.
One last thing before i close this.
Whenever i think bout boys and love and relationships,
i smile with a hint of giggle in my heart.
I never did understand them. Never will do.
Never will bother.
Watch this and feel loved. (chey)
♥ <--- funny thing, they dont have a broken heart code
