Autophobia - Fear of being alone or of oneself
Cibophobia - Fear of food
Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces
Gerascophobia - Fear of growing old
Melissophobia - Fear of bees
Mnemophobia - Fear of memories
Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight
Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love
Split personalities.
I dont want to write a story.
You do things that you regret over time.
Substances not only hurt yourself but also, to the others around you.
The obsession, My sickness.
Im not joking.
Ive never been this serious.
My meals are 9 pills a day with water.
Insane? No its an obsession.
[anyway ben says hello -_-']
Okayyyy back....
People have to stop looking at the media and start comparing.
Whats up with being a sized 0 or wanting to look like one of those sticks glazing down the fashion runways? Sexy? Really? Is image really that important?
Sensitivity is a bitch.
Just 1 comment, 'you're taking too much space'.....
And i vow to myself that i wouldnt eat for the whole day. Sometimes id sit on my flat floor.... drawing multiple lines on my thighs.. arms.. tummy.. like how the surgeons would... I HAVE TO LOOSE THIS MUCH FAT I HAVE TO LOOSE THIS MUCH FAT.
I dont look at food like how i used to anymore.. Actually.. ive gone to the extend to being so terrified.
Food's bad bad bad
cause it makes you fat fat FAT.
My vow till i am 45 kg.
Yes, Lynette is not joking, she's serious. An obsession with pills. The media, sticks glazing down the fashion runways being a sized 0. I wouldnt eat for the whole day. I HAVE TO LOOSE THIS MUCH FAT. Food's bad cause it makes you fat.
Yes, Lynette is not joking, she's serious. An obsession with pills. The media, sticks glazing down the fashion runways being a sized 0. I wouldnt eat for the whole day. I HAVE TO LOOSE THIS MUCH FAT. Food's bad cause it makes you fat.
Im sick.
Day six of missing you. ='[
Dont blame yourself for my mistakes. Would you believe me if i said i do, that i dont want to lose you. Take my heart, throw it all around for all i care. Just like i said, i will always be there. But as days passed by, your ignorance is killing me inside. Why cant we be what we have before. Do you still remember that you were my shinning star?
So tell me now if its possible to take what you have said that day.
I never meant to fall in love with you, the one i hate.
Stay with me. Ill do anything to make you believe me. One more chance, ill ask, to let me be with you.
Cause im still waiting. Waiting for you
I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive. Cause everything we've been through and everything about you seemed to be a lie.
A guiltless twisted lie. It made me learn to hate you.
Or hate myself for letting it pass by.
It's a shame that it had to be this way. It's not enough to say I'm sorry
Maybe I'm to blame, or maybe we're the same. But either way I can't breathe. All I had to say is goodbye. Were better off this way.
So what's the point in all of this? When you will never change.
The days have passed, The weather's changed. Should I be sorry?
I did it all, all for you hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched. Are we ready?
But you think about yourself & only but yourself
But what about un-lonely nights, romantic moments & the love.
What about them? Throw it all away.
You know me well, You know it's wrong
Then what is it you feel? You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won't fool me, cause you already did
Thanks for everything Wanwan ♥...
So tell me now if its possible to take what you have said that day.
I never meant to fall in love with you, the one i hate.
Stay with me. Ill do anything to make you believe me. One more chance, ill ask, to let me be with you.
Cause im still waiting. Waiting for you
I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive. Cause everything we've been through and everything about you seemed to be a lie.
A guiltless twisted lie. It made me learn to hate you.
Or hate myself for letting it pass by.
It's a shame that it had to be this way. It's not enough to say I'm sorry
Maybe I'm to blame, or maybe we're the same. But either way I can't breathe. All I had to say is goodbye. Were better off this way.
So what's the point in all of this? When you will never change.
The days have passed, The weather's changed. Should I be sorry?
I did it all, all for you hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched. Are we ready?
But you think about yourself & only but yourself
But what about un-lonely nights, romantic moments & the love.
What about them? Throw it all away.
You know me well, You know it's wrong
Then what is it you feel? You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won't fool me, cause you already did
Thanks for everything Wanwan ♥
Wonder.
Happy 100th post.
...
I am crying drunkened tears.
For you.
For each and everyone of you.
What happened to the boy who used to live in the same box as me?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
What happened to the girl who acted like my reflection?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
What happened to the love he lead me on to believe?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
My head stays down. I never want to look up.
I cant express how i am feeling but yet theres something inside of me that wants to explode.
I cant really say much. But spend some time, look at me.
Study my tears, feel my pain.
I just want to feel loved. Is that too difficult to get?
Stop destoying my heart. Its gasping for one last breath.
Dont take it away. Stay. Hold on to me. I really need you now.
I need that boy who lived with me in my box.
He's so amazing. But, he is slowly disappearing.
Im scared and you are the only light that brightens up my alley.
You make me smile. =[...
Drunkened Tears
I am crying drunkened tears.
For you.
For each and everyone of you.
What happened to the boy who used to live in the same box as me?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
What happened to the girl who acted like my reflection?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
What happened to the love he lead me on to believe?
I miss you. Am crying for you.
My head stays down. I never want to look up.
I cant express how i am feeling but yet theres something inside of me that wants to explode.
I cant really say much. But spend some time, look at me.
Study my tears, feel my pain.
I just want to feel loved. Is that too difficult to get?
Stop destoying my heart. Its gasping for one last breath.
Dont take it away. Stay. Hold on to me. I really need you now.
I need that boy who lived with me in my box.
He's so amazing. But, he is slowly disappearing.
Im scared and you are the only light that brightens up my alley.
You make me smile. =[
You are the closest thing to my happiness.
I bite my tongue another perfect time. I'd do anything to make him happy,
Even if it means my being miserable as long as he's loving life.
The thought of his smile and not being there. My inner feelings would be shattered.
A piece of glass punctured in my heart. I'm bleeding from the inside.
I will be able to sleep at night, with a smile upon his face.
As long as he's perfectly fine and someday he will be mine.
Realise.
...
Okay ive been home the whole day today..
And im soooooooooooooooo bored.
I want someone to talk to.
No, i want him to talk to.
He's so fun! ♥
Well anyways (i dont know what to say.. im soo bored)
Im picking an artist up tonight at the airport.
Gosh, im representing singapore.
Ive gotta do good.
SO OKAY!
I miss someone. He's so awesome. He's so fine.
He makes me laugh. I wanna make him mine.
He makes all my worries non existant, makes my imagination come to live.
He is my superman.
Fuck, im gonna watch The Clockwork Orange again....
Even if it means my being miserable as long as he's loving life.
The thought of his smile and not being there. My inner feelings would be shattered.
A piece of glass punctured in my heart. I'm bleeding from the inside.
I will be able to sleep at night, with a smile upon his face.
As long as he's perfectly fine and someday he will be mine.
Realise.
- My training for the Singapore Biennale was AMAZING
- One of my dreads fell out
- I am so busy and tired
- Exams coming up
- I have to stop procrastinating
- I miss him
- I am going to watch Simpsons on DVD now
Worse orgasm in the bathtub
Okay ive been home the whole day today..
And im soooooooooooooooo bored.
I want someone to talk to.
No, i want him to talk to.
He's so fun! ♥
Well anyways (i dont know what to say.. im soo bored)
Im picking an artist up tonight at the airport.
Gosh, im representing singapore.
Ive gotta do good.
SO OKAY!
I miss someone. He's so awesome. He's so fine.
He makes me laugh. I wanna make him mine.
He makes all my worries non existant, makes my imagination come to live.
He is my superman.
Fuck, im gonna watch The Clockwork Orange again.
IM COOLER THAN YOU!
Omg. Yet again, i want you to know that im still so much cooler than you stupid fool.
I read the comments you send and it pisses me off.
So what now... youre a smoker? God, youre so fucking pathetic.
Even with the fact that i am stuck here in Bangkok due to the stupid riots, i still have the vision of me stabbing you constantly in your eyes till you beg for forgiveness or maybe just die.
YOU STOLE MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND AWAY!
Well anyways,
Yup, theres a riot here and in about 15 mintues...
There is going to be a strike outside my hotel along the streets protesting for the damn government to step down. (WOAH!)
Okay....
Ive overspent my money so i decided to buy my last 3 packets of ciggarettes yesterday before i confined myself in my hotel..
I bought way too much stuff.. but still, it felt like i didnt have enough money.
Im coming home tomorrow!!! (hopefully)
Well, i miss everyone. (espically that someone (but im not telling who (cause it might be you (yes you, the one reading this (but still, im not telling who (psssst, he's an amazing boy)))))) <-- now, thats alot. =)
And to this boy who torn my heart into bits, dont you dare tell me that you are scared of loosing me AGAIN. Run along and tell yourself that you have already lost me. All you had to say was, I STILL LOVE MY EX GIRLFRIEND and i was gone.
I am never forgiving you AGAIN.
I AM MOVING ON!...
I read the comments you send and it pisses me off.
So what now... youre a smoker? God, youre so fucking pathetic.
Even with the fact that i am stuck here in Bangkok due to the stupid riots, i still have the vision of me stabbing you constantly in your eyes till you beg for forgiveness or maybe just die.
YOU STOLE MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND AWAY!
Well anyways,
Yup, theres a riot here and in about 15 mintues...
There is going to be a strike outside my hotel along the streets protesting for the damn government to step down. (WOAH!)
Okay....
Ive overspent my money so i decided to buy my last 3 packets of ciggarettes yesterday before i confined myself in my hotel..
I bought way too much stuff.. but still, it felt like i didnt have enough money.
Im coming home tomorrow!!! (hopefully)
Well, i miss everyone. (espically that someone (but im not telling who (cause it might be you (yes you, the one reading this (but still, im not telling who (psssst, he's an amazing boy)))))) <-- now, thats alot. =)
And to this boy who torn my heart into bits, dont you dare tell me that you are scared of loosing me AGAIN. Run along and tell yourself that you have already lost me. All you had to say was, I STILL LOVE MY EX GIRLFRIEND and i was gone.
I am never forgiving you AGAIN.
I AM MOVING ON!
