Now i am slightly awake.
And ive got something to say.
Expections are necessary in enabling us to make sense of the world. But while assumptions and memories of past experiences help us to process information on a daily basis, they also encompass the danger of losing our sense of wonderment and novelty.
Try to examine old ways of seeing things, of comprehension and expection.
In particular, expections of materials and concepts are examined through diverse methodologies, exploring how we "read", "feel" and "understand".
Now, try to digest.
The hard luck i am trying to tame
Okay i am just too tired to tell you anything.
Sometimes i get overly excited with Myspace and Deviantart.
Its addictive and you can learn alot.
Just be smart....
Sometimes i get overly excited with Myspace and Deviantart.
Its addictive and you can learn alot.
Just be smart.
You will remain the way you have stained my mind to picture you
This is going to be random. [its 448 am in the morning]
3 men in 5 days.
Not like i had a choice. I just wanted a sense of belonging.
I want to feel loved. But not like it exist in my life.
Art, it spins around my mind constantly 24/7.
Why have i suddenly gotten so involved in it?
I want, i need, more inspiration.
I carry a black journal (just like him) around everywhere i go and i jot down little thoughts that gushes in and out of my senseless mind.
Photography, wow.
Nothing much i can say about it.
Its the kind of feeling where you have to actually try it to feel the pleasure.
Just like sex.
Friends.
Its not easy. (my mind is currently not thinking. Remember its almost 5am in the morning)
Some is worth spending time for, caring for and putting effort for.
Others, dont waste my time. Though at times when im bored, i might need you.
I am wise in the category of friendship.
I choose what i want and i stick to it also, i give my ultimate most TLC.
I am very sincere at times. But you have to know..
that im sick of your childish games. Right now, i am just playing along.
How beautiful, GROW UP.
I am high, from substance and tiredness.
I have been tired and sick.
Been working but not studying.
And yes, i do procrastinate ALOT.
Ill leave you with this for now,
till i have the mood to blog a proper one.
(since when has any of my post been proper??)
Oh by the way, i am not your trophy girl
Will appreciate it....
He said: We'll watch movies.
She thought: I could sit next to him
He said: At your place.
She thought: The both of us would be alone
He said: I miss her
She thought: I miss you
He said: Are you alright?
She thought: Better, now that you are next to me.
He said: I dream of her.
She thought: Why? When you were lying next to me.
He said: Thanks for the hospitality.
She thought: Thanks for the wonderful company....
I want you to know
one thing.
You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.
But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine....
...
3 men in 5 days.
Not like i had a choice. I just wanted a sense of belonging.
I want to feel loved. But not like it exist in my life.
Art, it spins around my mind constantly 24/7.
Why have i suddenly gotten so involved in it?
I want, i need, more inspiration.
I carry a black journal (just like him) around everywhere i go and i jot down little thoughts that gushes in and out of my senseless mind.
Photography, wow.
Nothing much i can say about it.
Its the kind of feeling where you have to actually try it to feel the pleasure.
Just like sex.
Friends.
Its not easy. (my mind is currently not thinking. Remember its almost 5am in the morning)
Some is worth spending time for, caring for and putting effort for.
Others, dont waste my time. Though at times when im bored, i might need you.
I am wise in the category of friendship.
I choose what i want and i stick to it also, i give my ultimate most TLC.
I am very sincere at times. But you have to know..
that im sick of your childish games. Right now, i am just playing along.
How beautiful, GROW UP.
I am high, from substance and tiredness.
I have been tired and sick.
Been working but not studying.
And yes, i do procrastinate ALOT.
Ill leave you with this for now,
till i have the mood to blog a proper one.
(since when has any of my post been proper??)
Oh by the way, i am not your trophy girl
Will appreciate it.
Random thoughts
He said: We'll watch movies.
She thought: I could sit next to him
He said: At your place.
She thought: The both of us would be alone
He said: I miss her
She thought: I miss you
He said: Are you alright?
She thought: Better, now that you are next to me.
He said: I dream of her.
She thought: Why? When you were lying next to me.
He said: Thanks for the hospitality.
She thought: Thanks for the wonderful company.
If You Forget Me ( a tragic ending )
I want you to know
one thing.
You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.
But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.
Explain to me, what is love?
Past memories
…you hugged me and said you loved me…
…you let me fall in love and you set me free…
…I opened up my heart and gave it to you…
…I offered you my love as I thought you’d do too…
…but you broke my heart and left it in pieces…
…you forgot our love and our kisses…
…you made me forget all my fears…
…but you filled my eyes with tears…
…I remember your smile and your touch…
…I couldn’t break up cause I loved you too much…
…but now as your hope falls…
…you stopped answering my calls…
…you left me wondering what I did wrong…
…but I knew I had to be strong…
…I still had hope and that’s all it takes…
…I tried so hard and forgave your mistakes…
…but the passion’s lost and all the trust is gone…
…you didn’t break up but I couldn’t go on…
…you hurt me and stole my smile...
…but to forget you may take awhile…
…I tried to forget you as fast as I could…
…but I couldn’t forget our past as I should…
…you turned my life into dust…
…but you will never regain my trust
…I would never believe you again…
…but you didn’t even tried to explain…
…you can still look into my eyes…
…but now I can only see lies…
…I still dream about how it was before…
…but you’re not the girl I felt in love for…
…you once told me I was the one…
…but you threw my feelings like if I had none
…I don’t hate you for leaving me sore…
…but I just can’t handle the pain anymore…
…I don’t think I can ever forgive…
…you were once my reason to live…
…you’re now my reason to cry…
…I just can’t understand why…
...
Il est romance malheureux.
Ill cry and ill cry and ill cry.
Je pleure.
Je veux être heureux...
…you let me fall in love and you set me free…
…I opened up my heart and gave it to you…
…I offered you my love as I thought you’d do too…
…but you broke my heart and left it in pieces…
…you forgot our love and our kisses…
…you made me forget all my fears…
…but you filled my eyes with tears…
…I remember your smile and your touch…
…I couldn’t break up cause I loved you too much…
…but now as your hope falls…
…you stopped answering my calls…
…you left me wondering what I did wrong…
…but I knew I had to be strong…
…I still had hope and that’s all it takes…
…I tried so hard and forgave your mistakes…
…but the passion’s lost and all the trust is gone…
…you didn’t break up but I couldn’t go on…
…you hurt me and stole my smile...
…but to forget you may take awhile…
…I tried to forget you as fast as I could…
…but I couldn’t forget our past as I should…
…you turned my life into dust…
…but you will never regain my trust
…I would never believe you again…
…but you didn’t even tried to explain…
…you can still look into my eyes…
…but now I can only see lies…
…I still dream about how it was before…
…but you’re not the girl I felt in love for…
…you once told me I was the one…
…but you threw my feelings like if I had none
…I don’t hate you for leaving me sore…
…but I just can’t handle the pain anymore…
…I don’t think I can ever forgive…
…you were once my reason to live…
…you’re now my reason to cry…
…I just can’t understand why…
En mer de l'amour
Il est romance malheureux.
Ill cry and ill cry and ill cry.
Je pleure.
Je veux être heureux
I wont be able to sleep at night.
I keep refreshing.
Just to see if you are online.
And i have my phone close to me
With tears streaming down
i-a m-n o t-f i n e...
Just to see if you are online.
And i have my phone close to me
With tears streaming down
i-a m-n o t-f i n e
Dumb fuck
why
did
i
even
bring
myself
to
read
his
comments?
let
my
heart
bleed
once
again
feel
my
tears
i
am
crying
for
you
we
were
misunderstood
no.
why
is
this
even
happening?
i
cant
be
feeling
this
way.
i've
fallen?
='(...
Je déteste ma vie et je déteste les personnes qui le rend plus mauvais.
N'essayez pas de me compliquer.
Svp, je ne veux pas pleurer.
Je n'ai jamais compris des garçons
One last thing, did i make it that easy to walk right in and out, of my life?...
I just dont wanna say much these days.
But i sure am glad for my brand new friendship i am sharing with her.
Love isnt everything, it comes and it goes. Its sweet and its bitter.
There are good times and there are bad.
Ive learnt that being in love isnt really an easy life to start.
The commitments one has to put up with and the struggle both has to overcome.
But really,
is the tears all worth him in the end?...
did
i
even
bring
myself
to
read
his
comments?
let
my
heart
bleed
once
again
feel
my
tears
i
am
crying
for
you
we
were
misunderstood
no.
why
is
this
even
happening?
i
cant
be
feeling
this
way.
i've
fallen?
='(
I'd take a bullet for you <3
n. pl. mem·o·ries
- The mental faculty of retaining and recalling past experience.
- The act or an instance of remembering; recollection: spent the afternoon lost in memory.
- All that a person can remember: It hasn't happened in my memory.
- Something remembered: pleasant childhood memories.
- The fact of being remembered; remembrance: dedicated to their parents' memory.
- The period of time covered by the remembrance or recollection of a person or group of persons: within the memory of humankind.
Je déteste ma vie et je déteste les personnes qui le rend plus mauvais.
N'essayez pas de me compliquer.
Svp, je ne veux pas pleurer.
Je n'ai jamais compris des garçons
One last thing, did i make it that easy to walk right in and out, of my life?
I think of you, whenever life gets me down.
I just dont wanna say much these days.
But i sure am glad for my brand new friendship i am sharing with her.
Love isnt everything, it comes and it goes. Its sweet and its bitter.
There are good times and there are bad.
Ive learnt that being in love isnt really an easy life to start.
The commitments one has to put up with and the struggle both has to overcome.
But really,
is the tears all worth him in the end?
Titled: Just another message
Hey lyns <3
I'm typing this to you on a wierd Monday night. It was hot and humid in the morning but rainy at night! School was boring today and after school i went out. I just got back from dinner at Botak Jones Toa Payoh with JY and my cousin, Rach. We had one empty seat and i told them that it would've belonged to you!
We didn't get much chances to really talk the past 2 nights and i understand that you were busy handling and settling stuffs at home with your mom. I was very worried about you! I hope all would be better soon enough for you.
I just needed to type this message to you. I really missed you SOOO much judging from what you're going through and that we could not contact much. I really wished i could be there with you, but i'm sure you'd be fine. I really hope we could meet up soon and with JY all i'm sure things would go berserk and we'd have fun. We would have that "reality series" thingy going on again haha.
Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that i'm here for you, babe. You're someone that means alot to me and i know you know all of this. I want you to stay strong. You know that you have so much ahead of you in life. Your life is just waiting for you to find that key to unlock that door of dreams and opportunities. But you've gotta be real patient and i'll wait with you to cherish those great and better times ahead. I know you have been in many dark alleys, finding a way out. You have been feeling sad, depressed, angry, hopeless and then you reach a dead end with a huge brick wall. I want to see you on a lighted alleyway and i will be there at the end to bring you to a pathway of happiness and joy!
I really miss you so much and wished all is going well for you. Even if its not, persevere! You know you're worth it and JY and I are here for you. We still want that slumber party HAHA, and we've gotta go to Bintan together!
So many fun and thrilling times ahead. You're someone which made me mature in thinking and you have helped me alot in that sense. You have made me aware. I WILL be there for you!
I hope to see you soon,
I'm sure JY misses you as well and he sees you as a sister, someone to care and take care of.
I love you Lyns, and i hope we could meet up and have fun as always! Powertrio!
<3
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
Love,
Joshy oshy
I found this diamond, oh so rare.
But things are starting to complicate me....
I'm typing this to you on a wierd Monday night. It was hot and humid in the morning but rainy at night! School was boring today and after school i went out. I just got back from dinner at Botak Jones Toa Payoh with JY and my cousin, Rach. We had one empty seat and i told them that it would've belonged to you!
We didn't get much chances to really talk the past 2 nights and i understand that you were busy handling and settling stuffs at home with your mom. I was very worried about you! I hope all would be better soon enough for you.
I just needed to type this message to you. I really missed you SOOO much judging from what you're going through and that we could not contact much. I really wished i could be there with you, but i'm sure you'd be fine. I really hope we could meet up soon and with JY all i'm sure things would go berserk and we'd have fun. We would have that "reality series" thingy going on again haha.
Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that i'm here for you, babe. You're someone that means alot to me and i know you know all of this. I want you to stay strong. You know that you have so much ahead of you in life. Your life is just waiting for you to find that key to unlock that door of dreams and opportunities. But you've gotta be real patient and i'll wait with you to cherish those great and better times ahead. I know you have been in many dark alleys, finding a way out. You have been feeling sad, depressed, angry, hopeless and then you reach a dead end with a huge brick wall. I want to see you on a lighted alleyway and i will be there at the end to bring you to a pathway of happiness and joy!
I really miss you so much and wished all is going well for you. Even if its not, persevere! You know you're worth it and JY and I are here for you. We still want that slumber party HAHA, and we've gotta go to Bintan together!
So many fun and thrilling times ahead. You're someone which made me mature in thinking and you have helped me alot in that sense. You have made me aware. I WILL be there for you!
I hope to see you soon,
I'm sure JY misses you as well and he sees you as a sister, someone to care and take care of.
I love you Lyns, and i hope we could meet up and have fun as always! Powertrio!
<3
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
Love,
Joshy oshy
I found this diamond, oh so rare.
But things are starting to complicate me.
