I still dont know whats going on in my life.
It still seems very complicating and its getting worse.

Mon anniversaire est juste 5 jours loin.
Je ne veux pas penser à son sujet.
Je initially thought that je was going to ayez un bon temps.
With alex, and all our other friends and also, with Deepan.

But i cant, it hurts, i really dont wanna think bout it. Neither am i looking forward to it.

Mon Deepan maintenant allé et Alex, busy avec her own célébrations. Tous je veux est to drogue moi-même pour dormir again.

I am glad that life is treating Alex the way she should be treated. Well, i guess... she's happy now. With the band, and Auji, plus school (which i know is stressing the hell out of her, which school doesnt?) and have the best circle of friends to hang out with.

I stumbled upon her blog and after reading it, i started to get all upset again. It reminded me of how jealous i was with her in secondary school. When she had everything i wanted. But this time, i choice to be happy for her.

"...the next thing that came out of Auji's mouth was "When are we getting married Alex?". I'm like HAHA i've been asking him that so long. But we've planned all this a long time ago la. In about a month, we would've reached 2 years together. Throughout all the bullshit from my side and his, I still love him the same as always...."
Je me demande constamment, quand I serait heureux comme celui?
Je veux me sentir a aimé like how they are feeling.
Je suis trying. But nothing is working out. Tristement.

"...I love love love love love love BAUJI. We intend to have a movie marathon soon sushi and stuff. I don't know why sushi but I'm having cravings. Old school horror night pleaseeee. Well we stayed in today so we lazed around mostly then went out to eat then came back, lazed around again then we went for supper and he went back. I miss the stink bomb now..."
And in relation to that, i miss telling the people who reads my blog how much i amour amour amour amour amour amour that spécial quelqu'un. Also, i miss having weird cravings in odd hours and late night moives with him by my side. Snuggling. Random trips to the mall in the middle of the night for supper was secretly my favorite.

Yes, je m'ennuie de vous deepan. You have been consistently on my mind and strangely, whenever i think of you, i become very lightheaded.

Je déteste le fait que mon anniversaire est coming. I really can emphasize further on that.
Cause that the only person i wanna celebrate with is no longer a part of me.

Suce suce suce.

Alex would soyez the one l'heureux ce dimanche.
I'd prolly be halfway passing out on my bed again.

I still dont know whats going on in my life.
It still seems very complicating and its getting worse.

Mon anniversaire est juste 5 jours loin.
Je ne veux pas penser à son sujet.
Je initially thought that je was going to ayez un bon temps.
With alex, and all our other friends and also, with Deepan.

But i cant, it hurts, i really dont wanna think bout it. Neither am i looking forward to it.

Mon Deepan maintenant allé et Alex, busy avec her own célébrations. Tous je veux est to drogue moi-même pour dormir again.

I am glad that life is treating Alex the way she should be treated. Well, i guess... she's happy now. With the band, and Auji, plus school (which i know is stressing the hell out of her, which school doesnt?) and have the best circle of friends to hang out with.

I stumbled upon her blog and after reading it, i started to get all upset again. It reminded me of how jealous i was with her in secondary school. When she had everything i wanted. But this time, i choice to be happy for her.

"...the next thing that came out of Auji's mouth was "When are we getting married Alex?". I'm like HAHA i've been asking him that so long. But we've planned all this a long time ago la. In about a month, we would've reached 2 years together. Throughout all the bullshit from my side and his, I still love him the same as always...."
Je me demande constamment, quand I serait heureux comme celui?
Je veux me sentir a aimé like how they are feeling.
Je suis trying. But nothing is working out. Tristement.

"...I love love love love love love BAUJI. We intend to have a movie marathon soon sushi and stuff. I don't know why sushi but I'm having cravings. Old school horror night pleaseeee. Well we stayed in today so we lazed around mostly then went out to eat then came back, lazed around again then we went for supper and he went back. I miss the stink bomb now..."
And in relation to that, i miss telling the people who reads my blog how much i amour amour amour amour amour amour that spécial quelqu'un. Also, i miss having weird cravings in odd hours and late night moives with him by my side. Snuggling. Random trips to the mall in the middle of the night for supper was secretly my favorite.

Yes, je m'ennuie de vous deepan. You have been consistently on my mind and strangely, whenever i think of you, i become very lightheaded.

Je déteste le fait que mon anniversaire est coming. I really can emphasize further on that.
Cause that the only person i wanna celebrate with is no longer a part of me.

Suce suce suce.

Alex would soyez the one l'heureux ce dimanche.
I'd prolly be halfway passing out on my bed again.