Ok. How would i start this.
I wanna make this post as short as possible.
Im not truely happy about whats going on in my life. Alot of confusion.
Love, family, life.
What is the deal with always wanting to hang out late at nights? Do you know how much trouble i would get myself into?
And the number of times we have made out? Countless....
These feelings were nice at first. But they are slowly changing.
You know i am crazy for you and you should also know that this charade cant go on forever.
I dont want to reply you when you whisper "I LOVE YOU" into my ears cause im holding myself back from developing any feelings.
Ill leave someday unless you change. Im not living in your strange childish games.
The feeling of being hurt and heartbroken does exist in my life.
Do something.
Mom, please.
Im tired of you and everything else that is associated with you.
Put up with me a little more, that is all i ask.
Ill leave the house soon, for you. Just like the way you want it to be.
Then, you can live in your stupid little perfect life without me in it.
It sickens me to know the fact that you are actually my mother.
This is damn sad.
I am 19 years old this year.
I tend to think alot.
And it kinda scares me abit.
I dont want a "PERFECT" life.
I just want a normal one.
Sometimes, i put in too much effort for the wrong people.
Everyone else is a waste of my time.
Unless, someone brave, proves me wrong.
I welcome you.
I hate you, and everyone else.
Goodnight.
