You called for this.
I gave you everything you wanted, blindly and coldheartedly you threw it all away.
Now you are running back to me.
I cant play your twisted game any longer.

Smiles dropping quiet frowns. Laughter falls to tears. Counting all the time it took to build up our innocent sweet love. Trust.....Ive no longer have in me. I hide away my fear. Dropping everything so quickly. Memories arent so clear. Belief of my one truth. That i should have never interfered. Pushing away as they hold me down. Forcing me to stay here. But my light is getting dimmer. Everything is slowly fading away. The pain may soon be over. Maybe this is finally my day. But the light keeps getting dimmer. My sight is going black. I flashback to the tears and rainbows....
Its something i dont want to have to go through again.

ANYWAY....
I was sitting in my toilet earlier (dont ask why) and i noticed a smiley face crafted on the floor from the dirt off the soles of someone's feet. So very adorable.
Yet i keep asking myself why have i been so poetic and random lately. Something i cant relate to.
An angel. God sent.
He makes me laugh in every possible way. (even when im having my cramps. Now, that is very impossible but he managed it). I told you... god sent.
In a condescending way, we have so much in common.
Now i anticipate watching Camera Obscura with him.
Watching the fireworks the other weekend with him was like watching stars dancing in the shy. Nope, no regrets. He truly is an amazing person.

I am so contented with the alls i have within me now.
A loving mother (though she can be a pain at times) and an awesome friend/s.
Nothing else i would want to beg for.

I will let love find me ...

You called for this.
I gave you everything you wanted, blindly and coldheartedly you threw it all away.
Now you are running back to me.
I cant play your twisted game any longer.

Smiles dropping quiet frowns. Laughter falls to tears. Counting all the time it took to build up our innocent sweet love. Trust.....Ive no longer have in me. I hide away my fear. Dropping everything so quickly. Memories arent so clear. Belief of my one truth. That i should have never interfered. Pushing away as they hold me down. Forcing me to stay here. But my light is getting dimmer. Everything is slowly fading away. The pain may soon be over. Maybe this is finally my day. But the light keeps getting dimmer. My sight is going black. I flashback to the tears and rainbows....
Its something i dont want to have to go through again.

ANYWAY....
I was sitting in my toilet earlier (dont ask why) and i noticed a smiley face crafted on the floor from the dirt off the soles of someone's feet. So very adorable.
Yet i keep asking myself why have i been so poetic and random lately. Something i cant relate to.
An angel. God sent.
He makes me laugh in every possible way. (even when im having my cramps. Now, that is very impossible but he managed it). I told you... god sent.
In a condescending way, we have so much in common.
Now i anticipate watching Camera Obscura with him.
Watching the fireworks the other weekend with him was like watching stars dancing in the shy. Nope, no regrets. He truly is an amazing person.

I am so contented with the alls i have within me now.
A loving mother (though she can be a pain at times) and an awesome friend/s.
Nothing else i would want to beg for.

I will let love find me ...